For Once I’d Like To Smile With You

How am I supposed to know
when to laugh, when to cry,
when to smile, when to lie?
Should I just guess
Should I assume
That I should always cry with you?

I was never proud of me
Please, tell me how I could
I’ve hidden when I should
Be showing off
It’s not enough
To always have to cry for you.

Am I supposed to keep my faith?
should I continue to believe
That all of this was meant for me?
Of course you should
When all is good
For once I’d like to smile with you.

-M.

23.08.09

I used to know which words to say
What song to sing, which chord to play.
Here I am and I can’t choose
Which way to go, what chance to take.

Look at people passing by
Do they succeed when they try?
Do their lives make total sense?
Or are they as confused as I?

Can I dream? Is that enough?
Can I ignore when things get tough?
Can I just smile and nod along?
Or will they call my stupid bluff?

Am I fooling anyone,
With the mask that I put on?
Or am I lying to myself?
Trying to become someone…

-M.